Those who found themselves watching Billboard’s Women In Music Awards were faced with a vulnerable moment from the queen of the night; Selena Gomez. Her year has been a hell of a roller coaster, and the singer let out a few sobs after accepting the Woman Of The Year award from friends, Elle Fanning and Francia Raisa.

Unless you’re Selena Gomez herself, Raisa’s existence is a hazy presence at best. A quick backstory? Selena Gomez suffers from Lupus (we’ll let you google it yourself), and needed a kidney transplant earlier on in the year. Her knight in a shining azul dress? That would be the Secret Life Of The American Teenager actress, with Gomez going as far as saying her long-time friend deserves the award instead. A literal ride or die.

 

I’m very aware some of my fans had noticed I was laying low for part of the summer and questioning why I wasn’t promoting my new music, which I was extremely proud of. So I found out I needed to get a kidney transplant due to my Lupus and was recovering. It was what I needed to do for my overall health. I honestly look forward to sharing with you, soon my journey through these past several months as I have always wanted to do with you. Until then I want to publicly thank my family and incredible team of doctors for everything they have done for me prior to and post-surgery. And finally, there aren’t words to describe how I can possibly thank my beautiful friend Francia Raisa. She gave me the ultimate gift and sacrifice by donating her kidney to me. I am incredibly blessed. I love you so much sis. Lupus continues to be very misunderstood but progress is being made. For more information regarding Lupus please go to the Lupus Research Alliance website: www.lupusresearch.org/ -by grace through faith

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Also praising those close to her—her team and family—for helping her through a hard time, the Wolves singer lets us know that times may have been tough but she’s standing stronger than ever. Watch Selena Gomez’s acceptance speech below!